I have been diagnosed with anxiety and depression, long term and ongoing, and ocd. My observation is that many of the spd symptoms and characteristics can also fit into ocd, ocpd etc etc. But I don't completely fit onto those categories. It has been so very frustrating trying to get someone to help and to be more specific. But I have again been referred for councelling which I already know is going to be a waste of time. Discovering SPD has turned my world completely upside down. When I read a thread and
there is mention of something that I experience, it gives me a sharp intake of breath. Then a smile and butterflies in my stomach.
My regret is that I have had this all my life and been so hard on myself for being awkward/over emotional/a loner/very fussy/rigid with routine/appear lazy but just cannot get things done/always last minute for everythhing. I have felt guilty for all of my short-comings as I saw them.
My inability to do my job because of the distraction of my environment, the layout, my desk, the position of the phone, needing so much to be just right but never achieving it, was enormous. The daily quest to re-arrange prevented me from reaching my full potential. The need to re-start if I made a mistake, my excessive need to "doodle" distracting me, a strong
accent of a workmate grinding me down. Oh I could go on for hours! All these years, all this time, and I couldn't help it. That makes me feel so sad.
My hope now is to get the correct diagnosis and possible therapy, and a change of meds if need be.
Can anyone advise please if there is a particular book for adults with SPD? Or is the one for children just as relevant to adults?