Hi there, I wanted to take a moment to introduce myself before diving in to the forums, I'm a bit scared of being in a new place and getting to know new people.

I'm 34 years old and do not have a diagnosis of SPD but think that might be my problem. For as long as I remember I've struggled with what I thought was social anxiety or social phobia but when I described it to someone they suggested I might have SPD.

As a child my brother would run ahead but when encouraged to run off and play I would cling to my parents legs and refuse to go anywhere without them.

I've always been really clumsy, had poor memory, lack of focus/motivation, poor handwriting, never finish a project, always over tired and a total inability to cope with too much or too little light, too much noise (used to have an issue with silence too) and too much movement around me. I've also always found hearing difficult despite passing hearing tests, it's more a processing issue as if I'm not expecting someone to talk I have to ask them to repeat themselves and can't make out the words properly if their is any (even slight) background noise.

For a long time I just thought it was social phobia because I couldn't cope with crowded or noisy places, it becomes like an overload and leads to me dissociating, feeling nauseous, dizzy and like my brain physically hurts and I want to cry and hide somewhere. I have spent a long time avoiding these situations and can only cope with them to a small extent if I have someone with me, but even then if the noise, light or movement reaches a certain level I turn tail and run.

I've also always found it hard to socialise, never feeling like I fit in, cuddles (except with my husband and recently my children) have always felt insanely uncomfortable, when my parents hugged me I'd just hang my arms down by my side and wait for it to end (pray for it to end soon) I have been working on this and starting to find it easier more recently.

My eldest daughter has also been diagnosed with dyslexia and borderline dyspraxia but she has remarked on how she finds loud noise and movement difficult too, often ending up in tears because she says she has a headache. When she was aged 1-7 years old she used to make a noise like "uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh" when in loud places or when trying to focus and she told us this was to block out all the noise. She often also seemed to often go in to what looked like a trance. She had MAJOR behavioural problems when she was aged 3-13 and attended Child and Adolescent mental health when she was 7 years old. She is now 15.

My youngest daughter is 2 and the doctors have said she has suspected severe oro motor dyspraxia because she couldn't co-ordinate swallowing and breathing when she was born and had to have an NG tube in till she was 16 months old, she also had delayed crawling, walking and now has speech and language delay of 14-16 months and has been referred for speech and language therapy which she starts in February. There has been no progress at all with her speech for the last 3 months and only says about half a dozen words which are hard to make out. She also has hypermobilty and hypotonia and when she was born died at birth and was resucitated, but following that suffered supraventricular tachycardia. It is believed my placenta failed at 30 weeks pregnant and then I was induced at 38 weeks pregnant but she went in to distress.