I'm stating right now, that this is a rant. I just feel the need to share my experience with people who will understand. No one around here really gets it.

Anyway, I'm an idiot. A good friend of mine got married last weekend. The wedding was fine; the reception was a disaster. The music was ridiculously loud, there were lasers shooting about, too many people talking. It was horrible. And yet, because I love my friend and wanted to be with her on her special day, I stayed at this party for 4 freaking hours. The idiot part was that I new I would regret this party, but I wanted to be/act normal for one night. I thought I could tolerate one night without horrible consequences. Well, I was WRONG! It is Wednesday and I'm still sick. I feel spread so thin, so close to losing it, that I'm worrying my friends. Everything around me is nearly intolerable. It's too noisy, too touchy, too smelly, too everything. I can barely cope. I wish I could take a few days off work and sit in a lightly lit room and read for a few days until my senses are back to normal.

I hurt so damn much. Sometimes I wish I were normal.

Thanks for the vent.