I see a therapist - I actually developed an anxiety disorder from dealing with this 24/7. There is no shame in talking to someone! It really helps me! And I know how you feel... you want so desperately to have a good day or good night to feel like a "normal" family. To me that means, meltdown free. So, we can laugh together and enjoy each other. My son's meltdowns and regression began months ago, so it's hard for me to even remember the good times now. He is a totally different kid. Thankfully, we have a great team of people helping him who are collaborating efforts in talking to one another to find ways they all can treat him in different areas but striving for the same results. We see a behavior therapist and an OT therapist, and his pediatrician monitors what is going on too. This week, we now have found out he is dealing with a lot of anxiety and having migraines too, so it just adds to the bucket. I'm so tired!