You certainly have a lot on your plate, and I appreciate your courage in sharing your story. Welcome to the forum. There is much support here. Keep an open mind and at the same time be aware that some people may share things that you don't want to hear or may seem too forward. There is no shame in having SPD. You can't control what your central nervous system is doing. Although you are an adult, you could still benefit from occupational therapy, so I hope you will seek that out for yourself. It is never too late to start taking care of yourself, something that moms often leave till last. If you don't have insurance that would cover OT for yourself, I would recommend reading Growing an In-Sync Child by Kranowitz and Newman. Many of the sensory exercises presented in this book are easy, sensible things you could do that may help you to compensate for your SPD and experience more peace and comfort in your life. I wish you well and hope you continue to participate in the forums.